Tears and Fears

Progress is being made with recovery on my post-surgical Total Knee Replacement, yet there are fears that I have that still remain. As a  writer it just feels good to write about it....sometimes those near and dear to me are tired of hearing it anyway. I don't regret the decision to have Total Knee Replacement, but the pain and long term recovery was more than I had anticipated.  As of late, the thing that most concerns me.....no, terrifies me, is the prospect of having to go under anesthesia again for "manipulation under anesthesia " if I don't have the prescribed range of motion achieved by 6 weeks. Here is a description of such from Wikipedia:
Manipulation Under Anesthesia (MUA) is multidisciplinary manual therapy treatment system which is used to improve articular and soft tissue movement using specifically controlled release, myofascial manipulation, and mobilization techniques while the patient is under moderate to deep IV sedation using monitorized anesthesia care (MAC).^[1]

Post Surgery-Now the recovery begins...

Well, finally made it home and survived my Total Knee Replacement. Ahhh, such a good feeling to be home again and my husband and friends are helping in so many ways to make my life easier. It almost helps make up for the pain.  In the long run I am sure it will be worth it, but I had no idea the pain would be as intense as it has been.  So many things in life you take for granted and when you can't move like you normally do, just to accomplish simple tasks....then you really learn to appreciate the "normal" functioning of your body.  I have learned to maneuver quite well with my walker, and stairs are "doable" with my cane. Although I lately try to avoid the stairs except at the end of the day to go to bed. This lucky lady has a little horn on her walker....which might come in handy-after all I go so FAST on it. Actually, as I progress, I might not be needing a walker too much longer anyway..

I am however signed up for 5 weeks of physical therapy.  I have been to a couple sessions, and I am impressed with the therapists knowledge and technique.  However, sometimes I feel that they might be thinking they are not working me hard enough or are not doing their job if I don't end up in tears.  Not trying to be a cry baby, but HOLY COW , it really hurts! I know, I know, with further therapy it will hurt less and my "range of motion" will drastically improve. But in the mean time it feels like a long uphill battle.  To compound the issue, I am feeling guilty and a sense of loss from being away from my writing.  At least, I can update my blog, and the other projects will follow. Guess the other projects will follow when I am feeling better.  So thankful and feeling blessed that the surgery is done and the road to recovery begins. Prayers Answered.